Perfection.

Its the most hardest thing to do. Everyone expects the best from me. I feel so pressured sometimes but I have to realize that its a good thing because it can totally lead me towards motivation in achieving something great. I wanna be great! I wanna be the very best but where must I start ? I need to be an obedient child by now because I hurt my parents more and more last night only because of my stupid phone -.- I mean I seriously hate the fact that my dad thinks that my phone is the main distraction. I wouldn't call it a distraction, well maybe just a little bit but not much. I need my phone to stay with me even when I'm studying . I need it to be with me all times. Plus, me and my boyfriend got into idk maybe our 2nd most biggest fight? We were starting to feel okay already but then my dad took my phone away. How can't i not be mad about it? I'm not saying that I love my boyfriend more than I love my parents, no. Its just that I don't like it when my phone or precious things that I can't live without being taken away from me you know. They don't believe me. They really think its a distraction but then I told them that my 2nd test results are doing fine. They're getting better. Haish itu pun aku ada phone juga time tu tapi knp ah aku bleh belajar? ish. Maybe its the fact that my boyfriend is in asrama. Thats why. But asrama or not, I will be studying juga during the holidays ni. I'm not just saying this. I mean it. I'd already planned out my study schedule last friday. Lets see how it turns out to be like.