I guess this is goodbye.

I just don't know what else to say. You know who you are la kan? Do you think that I decided to end this relationship because I'm getting bored of you? No. I have my own reasons. What you did yesterday to me was painful enough for me to go through a day without thinking about it.  Yeah yeah you apologized a miliion times and you even cried in front of me begging for my forgiveness and you wanted to get on your knees for me but you know what? ko tau kn betapa susahnya aku mau maafkan kau tu? aku tpaksa kasi maafkan kau because you were eating my time that I had to miss tuition because of you. Masalah kau ni kan, kau mcm susah mau kawal emosi kau ni. panas baran betul. sikit2 kalau aku yg bad mood, kau pun ikut sama. you're suppose to comfort me stupid. Ya p la kau bunuh diri kau tu semua tu. tulah kau budu kan? pasal gf mau bunuh diri. mcm aku ni tuhan jak . tulungla,ni la yg susah ni kalau cinta mati ni. sampai akal pun hilang ntah ke mana. Tulungla , kalau kau betul2 beriman kan, kau akan fikir bah kalau benda tu adalah betul ka x . mcm suci betul dia tu smpai ready sudah mau mati kunun burh. Ish ya ya trying trying ya aku tau bukan senang mau berubah tapi ko tau kah, asal aku ada masalah kn, aku x kasi tunjuk oh sama kau kalau aku ingat balik. asal aku sama kau aku slalu happy and will get over it quickly. I need a mature boyfriend bah ni. kau obviously nda matang. pandai ja ckp orang lain nda matang padahal diri sndiri bah. haisshhh kalau mau ckp aku menyesal pun nda juga? the only thing thats amazing about you is that you give me love that i've never had before from anyone else.seriously. You love me for who i am and most importantly you take me as i am. yeah and aku pun heran knp aku x bleh terima kau seadanya ah? kalau mau ckp ko cinta mati aku pun, i don't think so. so kalau kamu mau tau aku ni single ka tidak,kamu rasa apa? aku bukan senang bah kasi lepas dia g2 jak. yah, maybe someday i'll start to appreciate him after he's gone kan? idk,maybe i'll regret this or not? would i? tapi bukankah semua perkara terjadi kerana kehendak Allah? semua kan ada hikmahnya? betul ka tidak? aku yakin yang ini sesuatu yg baik sebab mungkin sbb ini la yg bleh membuatkan aku focus kpd plajaran aku. aku x akan cpl lagi tahun ni . cukup la aku bercinta sama buku2 aku jak. sekian.